My first blog

 08.23.2020                                              My first blog

I've never blogged before in my whole life. I'm willing to change that. I want to create more depths and meaning in my life. I struggle with anxiety and I always felt like something is missing in my life like I have no purpose. I realize that's because I'm 24 hours on my phone and always on Instagram, looking at Instagram posts. This has a negative effect on me because I feel more tired, unmotivated, and sad. I don't want to live my life that way. Today I watched a very inspirational video about a man ( Seth Godin) talking about how starting a habit will change my life. I listened to him. He mentioned that consistency is the key. Well, I always struggle with consistency and I am prone to get bored easily and move on. But I am willing to learn and be a better person. From now on me, Selly choose to write a blog every day. It will be MY blog and I can express myself freely and creatively. There is no judgment and no wrong things or mistakes. It's a place where I can be myself. 

I need to keep telling myself that everything is okay. You are doing just fine. It's okay to not know what your purpose is and what you want to do in life. Struggles are good. Failures are okay. Mistakes make you grow. Life would be boring if I hadn't had any of those struggles. I am grateful for the struggles, failures, and mistakes I made because it makes me stronger, different, and better. I used to be jealous of people who knew their purpose since they were a child or who got their lives together. I am still jealous today. When I look at the Instagram post I see that their lives are perfect and flawless and I compare it to mine which is not flawless at all. I shouldn't let that influence me though. I don't know those people. They could be struggling in other areas but they don't show it. I don't know those people.